Nicole Boo: April 2013

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

I lost a friend today...

I lost a friend today.
As we are called to an all too familiar address,
As we arrive to people gathered and common faces,
Horrified looks and cries for help,
Prayers and bargaining with God,
I am not a Saviour, I am not an Angel, I am not a Saint,
I am a friend trying to keep my friend fighting.

I lost a friend today.
As we are doing all we can,
As I am acting as though this is a stranger,
As I can better treat a stranger than a friend,
As I try not to let emotion take over reason,
As I look at my friend...(whisper)stay with me.

I lost a friend today,
As I think of the children, the husband, the loved ones,
As I call for more help, higher care, moving quickly,
As the scene seems to crush in on me,
As I hold a hand, shoot a reassuring nod and smirk,
As I know it means nothing,
As I lose my friend.

I lost a friend today.
As we try to keep on,
As we try to keep talking,
As we both try to smile through the pain,
As I vow to be there,
As I watch the heart rate and lose the pulses.
I lost my friend.

I lost my friend today.
As I will tell her mother,
As I will sit with her Sister and Brothers,
As I will look into her childrens' teary eyes,
As I will explain what happened,
As I questioned if I could have done more,
As I never left her,
I lost my friend.

I lost my friend today.
As I am told "Thank God it was you."
As I wonder "Why did it have to be me?"
As I ask "Why did it have to be her?"
As I reacall the sounds, the clammer, the sirens, the choas, the chatter,
As the staff has seen me with this type of patient so many times before,
As the same people see me as they have never seen me...frightened,
As my face tells the story with tear filled eyes,
As I am holding my friend's hand and say Good Bye.
I lost my friend today..

As the nature of the job is to help others and it sometimes may appear to make us cold and unfeeling, remember, we see things and people at their worst so at times we must disassociate in order to do our job well, then again sometimes, we lose our friends...